i hate the way you make me feel

1 year and 4 months later...it still hurts like hell. You deserted me. Left me for dead. My broken pieces picked up by scavenging bird and wandering rodent. I am torn in all directions and split in ways that leave me no longer intact. No longer one whole being. Only the bits of me that are here and there. If only those bits could be reunited and loved again. If time doesn't heal all wounds, what will? And when will it kick in? Why are my cuts getting deeper instead of healing? It's not like I don't try. I just hate thinking of how "happy" you are and how miserable I am, and how you probably don't even care. I'm not even a whisper to you. I don't even cross your mind, do I? I have completely faded from your memory. You've made new ones with a new lady. Meanwhile you haunt my thoughts like a ghost. When will this be over? When can I breathe again and feel alive? Without you. It can't hurt forever...right?